Friday, April 24, 2009
goodbye.
i bid my farewell.
it has been long overdue, seriously.
i had coaxed myself too many times that i had put you down, that i had let you go, that it no longer hurt anymore. i kept going back to where i started, thinking that i had moved on, and yet only to realize i didn't even budge at all.
you didn't need me in the first place but i refused to face it. i was still wishfully thinking away how you would need me one day. and i tried, so hard, to become someone whom you can depend on. i needed you to need me - even if it wasn't the way we used to be, i still hoped that i could be somebody you could turn to.
and now i am at the end of the road. but it isn't the dead end that brought me to tears tonight - it is about how empty my heart is right now. the worst thing in the world isn't about losing you - it is about having nothing after all that has been said and done.
and so here i am saying "this is goodbye, for good."
it has been long overdue, seriously.
i had coaxed myself too many times that i had put you down, that i had let you go, that it no longer hurt anymore. i kept going back to where i started, thinking that i had moved on, and yet only to realize i didn't even budge at all.
you didn't need me in the first place but i refused to face it. i was still wishfully thinking away how you would need me one day. and i tried, so hard, to become someone whom you can depend on. i needed you to need me - even if it wasn't the way we used to be, i still hoped that i could be somebody you could turn to.
and now i am at the end of the road. but it isn't the dead end that brought me to tears tonight - it is about how empty my heart is right now. the worst thing in the world isn't about losing you - it is about having nothing after all that has been said and done.
and so here i am saying "this is goodbye, for good."
10:51 PM, i wrote.
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
"i wish i knew how to quit you."
11:17 AM, i wrote.
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Sunday, April 12, 2009
i'm loss at words.
i just want to rest now. i need a good long rest.
i just want to rest now. i need a good long rest.
7:47 PM, i wrote.
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Ne Me Quitte Pas (Don't Leave Me)
Don't go away.
If you can't forgive, believe, just to live.
You must forget, forget the times you misunderstood.
Let them slip through your hand with the sands of time
And forget those hours when 'perhaps' has died
At the hands of 'why' and our lack of faith
Don't go away. Don't go away. Don't leave me.
Me, I'll offer you pearls made out of the rain
That falls in a world where rain never falls.
I'll ransack the earth all day and night
To surround you with gold and light.
I'll make a domain where love will be king, where love will be everything
And you'll be the queen.
Don't go away. Dont' go away. Don't leave me.
Don't go away
I'll invent for you words just meant for you
And only you'll know what they meant.
And I'll tell you the truth about how other lovers
Looked into each other and how they were moved.
Then I'll read to you the story of kings
Who lived without meeting you and died without knowing you.
Don't go away. Dont' go away. Don't leave me.
Don't go away
I won't cry anymore
I won't talk anymore
I'll crawl under the bed
And I'll watch you from there
As you smile and you dance
And I'll listen to hear
How you talk, when you laugh it's enough
In the shadow of you shadow
In the shadow of your hand
The shadow of your man
Don't go away. Dont' go away. Don't leave.
If you can't forgive, believe, just to live.
You must forget, forget the times you misunderstood.
Let them slip through your hand with the sands of time
And forget those hours when 'perhaps' has died
At the hands of 'why' and our lack of faith
Don't go away. Don't go away. Don't leave me.
Me, I'll offer you pearls made out of the rain
That falls in a world where rain never falls.
I'll ransack the earth all day and night
To surround you with gold and light.
I'll make a domain where love will be king, where love will be everything
And you'll be the queen.
Don't go away. Dont' go away. Don't leave me.
Don't go away
I'll invent for you words just meant for you
And only you'll know what they meant.
And I'll tell you the truth about how other lovers
Looked into each other and how they were moved.
Then I'll read to you the story of kings
Who lived without meeting you and died without knowing you.
Don't go away. Dont' go away. Don't leave me.
Don't go away
I won't cry anymore
I won't talk anymore
I'll crawl under the bed
And I'll watch you from there
As you smile and you dance
And I'll listen to hear
How you talk, when you laugh it's enough
In the shadow of you shadow
In the shadow of your hand
The shadow of your man
Don't go away. Dont' go away. Don't leave.
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