Tuesday, January 27, 2009
we live to seek our definition of happiness, therein lies the justification of all our actions and thoughts. it is this pursuit that let us believe; that makes us the persons we are; that makes our existence worthwhile.
so many of us are constantly trying to fill in the missing blanks in our life. yet, so many times, we don't quite understand what we are looking for exactly. it can be at that spur of a moment, we are contended with our sum of happiness. yet, at the next, we realize the equation of happiness seemed to fall short of what we wanted. and so, we let the viscious cycle continues.
how can we be constant with our equation of happiness? can we really be contended?
can i be constant with who i am? and even if i can, can the people around me be the way they always are?
i seek constancy. but i am starting to believe that change is the only constancy that is left for me to seek.
so many of us are constantly trying to fill in the missing blanks in our life. yet, so many times, we don't quite understand what we are looking for exactly. it can be at that spur of a moment, we are contended with our sum of happiness. yet, at the next, we realize the equation of happiness seemed to fall short of what we wanted. and so, we let the viscious cycle continues.
how can we be constant with our equation of happiness? can we really be contended?
can i be constant with who i am? and even if i can, can the people around me be the way they always are?
i seek constancy. but i am starting to believe that change is the only constancy that is left for me to seek.
12:19 PM, i wrote.
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
slow dancing in a burning room.
who did we blame when our love ended?
who snubbed and robbed us off those little daydreams we once had?
who sucked us into this, making us only to know how to hurt each other even as we still care so much?
"this is the deep and dying breath of this love we've been working on."
we tangled as we tried so hard to untangle - a dead knot. was it your fault for trying to let loose? or was it mine for trying to hold on? before we realized, our hands were tied, wasn't it?
"we're going down and you know that we're doomed.
my dear, we're slow dancing in a burnin room."
9:12 AM, i wrote.
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Friday, January 23, 2009
there is a sense of erraticism between any kind of interpersonal relationship we are in. its a kind of unpredictability - a potential to discourse or to break. it may not necessarily be a darkness, but it refrains one from uncovering it.
it is at the back of our head. subconsciously, we are drawn by it and it leads us to commit certain incomprehensible acts to the ones we are having the relationship with. it blocks out your judgment and you seem to only act as how you will react.
but when you take a step back and give it a second of thought, you will start to realize the rooted cause of this erraticism. you will begin to understand the levels of your relationship with that someone and see how complex they may be - your feelings, his feelings, your desires, her desires, your state of mind, their states of mind.
and when you realize it all, it may just dawn on you how much you should be valuing your relationship with that person. Never to take them for granted and to accept them for who they are. after all, it is because of them that you seem to act in this impulsive manner.
it is at the back of our head. subconsciously, we are drawn by it and it leads us to commit certain incomprehensible acts to the ones we are having the relationship with. it blocks out your judgment and you seem to only act as how you will react.
but when you take a step back and give it a second of thought, you will start to realize the rooted cause of this erraticism. you will begin to understand the levels of your relationship with that someone and see how complex they may be - your feelings, his feelings, your desires, her desires, your state of mind, their states of mind.
and when you realize it all, it may just dawn on you how much you should be valuing your relationship with that person. Never to take them for granted and to accept them for who they are. after all, it is because of them that you seem to act in this impulsive manner.
5:52 PM, i wrote.
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
do you know how hurt i am?
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
誰還記得 是誰先說永遠的愛我
以前的一句話 是我們以後的傷口
過了太久 沒人記得當初那些溫柔
我和你手牽手 說要一起走到最後
我們都忘了 這條路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都會停的
讓時間說真話 雖然我也害怕
在天黑了以後 我們都不知道會不會有遺憾
我們都累了 卻沒辦法往回走
兩顆心都迷惑 怎麼說 怎麼說都沒有救
親愛的為什麼 也許你也不懂
兩個相愛的人 等對方先說找分開的理由
誰還記得愛情開始變化的時候
我和你的眼中 看見了不同的天空
走的太遠 終於走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有兩個相反的夢
i used to think that i shine. i had the brilliance that killed the lights.
i wasn't afraid; almost fearless. there were no barriers, no obstructions.
but looking at me now, i think i have lost it. the glow is gone and shine, i do no more. life seems to have taken a lustreless path. the colors has faded.
there was a point in life i thought, "this is it, this is the beginning of all possibilities. this must be where happiness starts, where it begins."
i realized today that there was, in fact, the defining moment of happiness. just because it was, i asked myself today have i treasured it enough? just because it was... just because.
like a broken clock, i am always in limbo with the past. every thing, everyone has moved on, why can't i do the same?
以前的一句話 是我們以後的傷口
過了太久 沒人記得當初那些溫柔
我和你手牽手 說要一起走到最後
我們都忘了 這條路走了多久
心中是清楚的 有一天 有一天都會停的
讓時間說真話 雖然我也害怕
在天黑了以後 我們都不知道會不會有遺憾
我們都累了 卻沒辦法往回走
兩顆心都迷惑 怎麼說 怎麼說都沒有救
親愛的為什麼 也許你也不懂
兩個相愛的人 等對方先說找分開的理由
誰還記得愛情開始變化的時候
我和你的眼中 看見了不同的天空
走的太遠 終於走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我 要有兩個相反的夢
i used to think that i shine. i had the brilliance that killed the lights.
i wasn't afraid; almost fearless. there were no barriers, no obstructions.
but looking at me now, i think i have lost it. the glow is gone and shine, i do no more. life seems to have taken a lustreless path. the colors has faded.
there was a point in life i thought, "this is it, this is the beginning of all possibilities. this must be where happiness starts, where it begins."
i realized today that there was, in fact, the defining moment of happiness. just because it was, i asked myself today have i treasured it enough? just because it was... just because.
like a broken clock, i am always in limbo with the past. every thing, everyone has moved on, why can't i do the same?
12:46 AM, i wrote.
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Friday, January 9, 2009
i have been sighing too much lately.
i was pulling my own ear.
i am still a fool.
there should be a limit, a breaking point; the threshold to the heart. or is it that mine has turned into an abyss feeding on my sanity? the heart tortures itself. and for what?
i know it all. yet i have fallen from grace, losing the very last of dignity left in me.
i gave you my untainted truth only to have dejection in return. but you will never comprehend, you will never understand.
i was pulling my own ear.
i am still a fool.
there should be a limit, a breaking point; the threshold to the heart. or is it that mine has turned into an abyss feeding on my sanity? the heart tortures itself. and for what?
i know it all. yet i have fallen from grace, losing the very last of dignity left in me.
i gave you my untainted truth only to have dejection in return. but you will never comprehend, you will never understand.
1:55 AM, i wrote.
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?
10:25 AM, i wrote.
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